2nd Incident : Business Failure in 2013
After my graduation in 2009, I worked for an year and then in 2011, I took a leap of faith and started my own business. I was new to this Business World and I didn't know the mechanics of making it work and later I realized that the Business I was in wasn't supposed to be the right business for me anyway.
I was working my *** off to get it off the ground but nothing I did, helped me but put me deeper into Financial Debt. And slowly and relentlessly, I proved to myself that no matter how I attempted to do this, it wasn't going to work. Every year in that business became a bigger ball and chain of failure mounting evidence of my ineffectiveness which became impossible to ignore.
It effectively rendered me penniless and it was a big blow to my self-esteem.
My friends were getting into Business schools, PhD programs, getting into relationships, getting into high paying jobs, getting engaged, getting married, having kids, enjoying different cuisines and roaming all around the country and countries outside India & here I was with no money, no friends to talk to, my health was in shambles and I didn't know the way out this situation
3rd Incident : Breakup with Girlfriend in 2014
While I was recovering from Business Failure, something else was waiting for me. I left the Business in 2013, the same time, I got into relationship with my girlfriend at that time, it was co-dependent relationship. Both of us tried to make it work. I was in constant fear that she would eventually leave me.
Eventually, my worst fears came true and she left me in 2014.
That was a Double Whammy. My existing health issues even worsened then.
Meanwhile, I was in the process of building my own business, I stopped paying attention towards my health. I started eating outside regularly, skipping meals, sleeping late and less and that became even worse after my breakup & eventually it started taking a toll on my health.
In 2013, my health rapidly started declining, I would get dead tired by early afternoon almost every single day. I used to feel fatigued throughout the day. No matter, how many things I tried changing including diet, exercise, sleep, supplements and much more. Nothing worked well, it was all hit and miss.
I also started suffering through myriad of other health issues. I used to be in state of constant anxiety and also suffered from constant mood swings. My hands and feet used to be always cold. I tried various alternative treatments but nothing gave me long lasting results.
At the same time, I also started having constant skin breakouts and sometimes the itch caused by it would be so unbearable that I couldn't sleep for many consecutive nights and then again cycle of low energy would follow.
I used to have constant sharp headaches after my lunch & dinner. It felt like my head was going to burst. No matter how many times I changed my diet, no matter how much I would rest, I would still be plagued by those excruciatingly painful headaches. Whenever I took rest, I felt more fatigued after the rest. It seemed like nothing was working. It became totally impossible to focus on work after lunch, dinner or heavy meal.
I also became forgetful. I couldn't remember basic things including what I ate for breakfast, lunch or dinner the same day. It felt like my brain was covered with a fog. I even stopped having morning erections. I rarely had erections even upon sexual arousal.
And worst of all, I started having digestion issues. I used to suffer from bloating and food allergies even when I used to eat home-made healthy food (or that's what I thought) It became difficult to even travel and meet someone without not thinking of secretly going to washroom to empty my bowels. There was always this icky feeling that felt like I hadn't emptied my bowels.
Whenever I used to eat certain types of foods, I used to get sharp headache and skin rashes. It would make my next few hours completely unbearable. Sometimes, I was forced to take rest in order to feel good for next few hours.
And along with that I started rapidly losing my hair. Actually a lot, followed by severe scalp itch. Whenever I used to comb my hair, I would get anywhere from 30-50 hairs in my hands along with a lot of flaky dandruff.
In order to avoid embarrassment and shame, I constantly used to do some weird hairstyles.
I know you must have gone through the similar phase where you would have asked yourself
"Why Me, What's wrong with me ? Why am I losing hair despite having proper diet, exercise and why that fat unhealthy a**hole who never exercises and eats fast food all the time has head full of hair ?"
You will know why that was happening with me when you read about 3 Pillars I discovered.
I used to conceal my bald spots and overcompensate by growing a lot of hairs but after a while I couldn't even do that because there were not enough hairs left to cover rest of my scalp.
Do you feel really bad when you have look at a handsome hunk or gorgeous model with great hairstyle which you want to imitate but you just can't ?